Photos of the weekend

I have a great few photos of my weekend. One of me and my and Donovan before I headed out on Friday. Then on Saturday Donovan had a visit from his cousins. The last picture is of Donovan in his costume.

Drinking...The evils of it.

I have realized that there are people who can drink. Then there are those who really have no business drinking. I am so pissed right now. Where should I begin.

Today has been a good day up until Scott and Donovan broke the window. There were throwing the football in the house. Of course I have told them not to, but what I say doesn't matter. Well Donovan threw the ball and busted the window. So Scott starts to blame Donovan. To me they both were to blame. However, nope. Scott blames Donovan. To make matters worse he had been drinking since he got home this afternoon which was about 2 pm. He quit about 8 this evening. I am so done.

Now my next problem is that tonight I posted the cutest picture of Donovan. He was in his Robin Teen Titans costume. A friend of mine said cute. My husband writes he has responsibilities as lead off hitter and make believe is now over. What the hell is that all about? I wrote the only responsibility my son should have is playing. He is a idiot. Then he posted the ends justifies the means. Alcohol seems to bring out stupid. I am not sure what his problem is but I am really getting tired of the drinking he does and just does stupid stuff.

I am not sure what to do, but God there has to be an answer to this. I will figure it out. I am thinking of seriously thinking of dumping out all of his beer. However, I am not sure if I want to deal with the consequence.

Tuesday

I am finally writing in my blog. I am doing a lot better than what I usually do. I mean it takes more than about two or so weeks to write on here. Doing my best. I will have to take baby steps.

Last Wednesday I turned 41. I had a wonderful day. I brought cupcakes for my students that were well behaved that day. I also brought some for the Life Skills students that I have come to adore. They come by to see me everyday and make teaching for me wonderful. They made me birthday cards, which I will cherish forever. I cried when they sang me Happy Birthday. What sweet children. I am so blessed to know them.

My husband sent me flowers for my birthday. They were absolutely beautiful. I love them. As I sit here and blog I am staring at them. I will post a picture of them in a few. I hope I have them on here. To top the day off my beautiful daughter sent me roses too. They were beautiful too. An autumn bouquet of roses. God has blessed me with a wonderful family.

School is going fine. I am trying to stay to myself, but no such luck at times. People find me. I stay in my hole. I like it that way. I hate that I can't see some of my friends, but I guess there is facebook. LOL.

My friendship with Charlotte is no longer existent. I have decided that her type of friendship is not worth it. I cannot have her as a friend who only is a friend when she needs me. I understand that she is going through some stuff but treating me like your dog is not worth it. Besides I am tired of hearing how horrible she is treating everyone else. I think she is quitting in December and as far as I am concerned that is good for her. She needs something other than work. I don't know what has happened to her and think she has put herself where she is and she can stay there by herself.

Yesterday I made the cutest little pumpkin jars for Donovan's daycare class. I can't wait to give them to his class. I will post a picture. I saw a lady selling them for 6 dollars a piece. I made them with baby food jars, paint, raffia, spray acrylic, and time. I made them for less than 2 dollars. I love them. I have tons of ideas for baby food jars. I am so excited about what I can make.

Way to Long

It has been so long since I have blogged. I wish I could get in the habit to write everything instead of having so much to say over a long period of time in one posting. It looks like I will have to give the abbreviated version.

School is school. The kids are full of drama and I am really trying to just not allow it to effect the class. My first period class I dread due to drama with several students, but I can't help the school drama, but I can give them secure place to be when they are at school.

Stephanie came to visit on Friday. We had a good time. I wish my husband would not have been drinking as much as he did. He let me know that I didn't appreciate him. Whatever, I just know that this happens every year around my birthday. Last year Scott told me he wanted a divorce on my birthday. My birthday is next week and I feel the calm before the storm. I wish he weren't so darn bi polar.

My next issue is Scott's son wants to meet his brother Donovan. I am not happy about this. Donovan has no idea he has another brother or sister. The only family he knows of is Stephanie. She is the only one who would protect him. I am not sure how I feel. I just don't want those evil children near him. I hope God can tell me what to do.

I have been crafting and made the following sign last night. Well going to get off of this and try to post tomorrow. I hope everyone has a great evening.

Tuesday

Donovan and I do not have many more days of just us. I will be returning back to school. I love my job, it is the drama and politics involved with work. I am not sure why people think I really care about my room right now. I am not on contract till August 15, and that is when I will discuss my room. I mean I really do not have much of a say in anything. I do know that if the Admin is not worried about my room, then I am not going to worry about it. I mean if there is anything to worry about Admin will figure it out. I am sure they have some type of backup plan.

I actually worked on my chipboard letters for my room. I love the ABEL ones. They turned out great. I also got the best saying for my class. If I am ABEL to do it, then you are ABEL to do it too. Love it. Now my READING letters I am unsure if I will keep the scrap paper on it. They are skulls that would go with a pirate them. I might end up changing them.

I am so dreading Quantum Learning tomorrow. I just to get home to be with Donovan. We are suppose to go to the beach on Thursday. I can't wait for a fun day with my baby. I wish we could spend a few more days together, but I have to go back to work.

Dreading Monday

This weekend has been great. Thursday I went to Splashtown with Tricia, Scott, Donovan, and Nolan. We had a great time. I am so glad Scott was able to come with us. It was great to ride the waterslide with Donovan.

Friday was an ITZ day with Donovan, Nolan and Tricia. I am not a fan of ITZ. Donovan won enough tickets to get 8 ninjas. He has a great time. I am so glad. I love seeing my little man happy.

Saturday was another great day. Scott, Donovan, and I went to Anna's for housewarming party. Donovan had a great time swimming, but we had a little problem. Donovan was in the pool by the side. Well he decided to get a little brave and got too far away from the side. He could not swim. Scott had to jump in the pool after him. I felt so bad. He said he didn't want to swim anymore. I was a little scared. I talked to him and he gave me a hug. He said his heart hurt and I felt horrible.

Today was a laid back day. We were going to go to church but we had no water. I was not a happy camper. Donovan was looking so forward to going to church. He told me he wanted to sing to Jesus. Gosh I love that little boy.

Now tomorrow is the dreaded Hell day. I do not want to go back to work and sit for a workshop. I mean I need to figure out how to be elsewhere. I just realize that working at school is very political. You have to be young and cute to get anywhere up there. I guess it just took me a long time to see that. My feelings are just a roller coaster where work is concerned. I need to remember I have the power to change but do not have the power to change other people. I have a verse to help me through the day.
Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.

I need to place this verse on my tile in the kitchen so I can see it everyday. I am going to need it just to make it through the school year. God give me the strength to make it through the year. Please hold my tongue Lord.

Oh well it is late and i need to get in bed. I am actually tired right now. That is first. My little boy is asleep.

BBR Training

This morning I was dead to the world. I had to teach a training today. I stayed up too late looking for my jump drive for my lesson. I think it was about 1 am when I hit the hay, and woke up at 5 am. I was dead. I did make it through the day, but oh my word I was very exhausted.

Training went great. I love doing training. It make me realize why I became a teacher. I love teaching.

Donovan and I have done nothing. I am so excited about the rest of the week after tomorrow. I am taking Donovan to Splashtown with my friend Tricia. I will post pictures. Then on Friday to the beach. I can't wait. It will be so much fun. I hope he doesn't have Tball practice that day or I am screwed. I hope that practice can be Saturday.

I am so exhausted so this will be short. I need to hit the hay.