Today is not going as well as I would like. I just looked over my students TAKS scores. Some celebrations and some well I am not sure what to say. I know why many probably didn't pass. They don't listen to me in class. It has me re evaluating what I need to do to improve my class. I guess I am just an average to poor teacher. I take this very personal. I hate to hear a student has failed. However, overall looking at effort through the year I can see why some have not done well. Now it is to see how much they failed by. I want to just scream and cry.
I am getting the chance to tell my students on Friday. It will give me time to think on how I want to approach this. I have to find something to hook them. Just what is the question. I have a lot to think about during the summer. I need to find a hook. I will figure it out. Just don't know how well I will do.
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Too Long
It has been too long since I last wrote on my blog. I hope to get a little better with this blogging when summer comes. There is so much to talk about but won't tell all. I just think certain things are better kept a secret. LOL.
School is coming to an end. How would I sum up the year. Stressful, drama, dreadful, loving, out with the old, in with the new. I am not sure whatelse I can say.
Eleven years at the same school makes me wonder if it is time for a change. Change is always good. Due to the lack of communication with the district, not sure how that will effect teacher jobs. Unfortunately what the district is trying to do to cut the debt is still unknown. I think the unknown is what scares everyone. The unknown is what caused me to take my name off the transfer list. Also the fact that my husband had made a comment that he wanted out of the marriage. I know I should be upset but I can't. I have to think about my son Donovan. One of the two loves of my life. However, Scott has changed his mind again. Stability seems to be what is missing with the job and possible with the marriage.
Something my mom says over and over to my brother and I. " The only friends you have are your family" She says they stand by you no matter what. As for friends they pick and choose when they stand by you. I have come to realize this that she is right. I know the reason she says this to my brother is because he is always gets himself in trouble with friends who throw him under the bus. I can't say that about my friends, but do understand what my mom is saying due to issues that come up. I am not sure if I have become a hard person because of situations I have allowed myself to be placed in. I mean I think nothing is safe where teaching is concerned.
Donovan has been a blessing the last semester of school. He has made me laugh at many of the things he does and says. I love him to death. He is such a cutie. He has been playing T ball and I have coached. He is so funny when it comes to running and hitting. I am glad he loves to hit the ball. I will have to upload a picture of Donovan playing Tball.
My second blessing is my daughter Stephanie. She has just finished her first year of college at the University of Texas. She is a wonderful daughter and I couldn't of asked for a better kid. She is taking summer school at Kilgore this summer and starts tomorrow. We will start looking for stuff for her apartment.
Another issue is my ex husband. He had Stephanie call me to ask for half of the money for wisdom teeth being pulled. She started to cry when she asked. She says she hates asking. I am somewhat pissed off that he would have her ask. I am not sure why he wouldn't ask me. I told her I would pay, but thewhole time Stephanie lived with me, I never asked her dad to pay for anything. I used his child support money for the 300 dollars for Club Volleyball. I guess I am mad because I know he owes me 1000 from child support for back payment after what he owed me was now deducted from what I owed him. I will pay because it is for my daughter, but he is making me so mad with his stupidity.
The joys of motherhood can be great, but when you deal with others it makes motherhood hard.
School is coming to an end. How would I sum up the year. Stressful, drama, dreadful, loving, out with the old, in with the new. I am not sure whatelse I can say.
Eleven years at the same school makes me wonder if it is time for a change. Change is always good. Due to the lack of communication with the district, not sure how that will effect teacher jobs. Unfortunately what the district is trying to do to cut the debt is still unknown. I think the unknown is what scares everyone. The unknown is what caused me to take my name off the transfer list. Also the fact that my husband had made a comment that he wanted out of the marriage. I know I should be upset but I can't. I have to think about my son Donovan. One of the two loves of my life. However, Scott has changed his mind again. Stability seems to be what is missing with the job and possible with the marriage.
Something my mom says over and over to my brother and I. " The only friends you have are your family" She says they stand by you no matter what. As for friends they pick and choose when they stand by you. I have come to realize this that she is right. I know the reason she says this to my brother is because he is always gets himself in trouble with friends who throw him under the bus. I can't say that about my friends, but do understand what my mom is saying due to issues that come up. I am not sure if I have become a hard person because of situations I have allowed myself to be placed in. I mean I think nothing is safe where teaching is concerned.
Donovan has been a blessing the last semester of school. He has made me laugh at many of the things he does and says. I love him to death. He is such a cutie. He has been playing T ball and I have coached. He is so funny when it comes to running and hitting. I am glad he loves to hit the ball. I will have to upload a picture of Donovan playing Tball.
My second blessing is my daughter Stephanie. She has just finished her first year of college at the University of Texas. She is a wonderful daughter and I couldn't of asked for a better kid. She is taking summer school at Kilgore this summer and starts tomorrow. We will start looking for stuff for her apartment.
Another issue is my ex husband. He had Stephanie call me to ask for half of the money for wisdom teeth being pulled. She started to cry when she asked. She says she hates asking. I am somewhat pissed off that he would have her ask. I am not sure why he wouldn't ask me. I told her I would pay, but thewhole time Stephanie lived with me, I never asked her dad to pay for anything. I used his child support money for the 300 dollars for Club Volleyball. I guess I am mad because I know he owes me 1000 from child support for back payment after what he owed me was now deducted from what I owed him. I will pay because it is for my daughter, but he is making me so mad with his stupidity.
The joys of motherhood can be great, but when you deal with others it makes motherhood hard.
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